Thursday, October 30, 2014

The Gift.... { Day 302 }

My car breaks down in a parking lot and I’m trying to figure out how I’m going to get home.  A guy that I work with – he walks out to his car to go home and sees that I’m having trouble.  This guy – he’s the reason why I decided to work at this place.  He comes over and takes a look at my car, tells me what the problem is and says that he will give me a ride home.  (I think I might have called my dad to see if it was ok for me to ride with him – my dad was 4 hours away.) But I knew that this guy had a huge heart.  He always helped people.  It’s who he was…it’s who he is.

October 30, 1994…we had our first date.  That was 20 years ago today. 

We’re much older now and we have two beautiful children - a life I would never trade.  He gets me - he knows how to speak to me.  He speaks my language.

We were married 16 years ago and our love today has evolved to so much more than just that butterfly feeling.  It’s not the fairytale life…its real life and I would marry him all over again today.  

One thing that hasn’t changed in our years together…he’s always there for me.  No matter what – he always shows up.  I often joke that my camera is like my right hand but really – it’s him.  He loves through it all. 

He dropped everything to help me study for nursing. He carried me when I couldn’t walk. He held my hand during miscarriages and c-sections.  He told me everything was going to be ok when I almost died after having our daughter – and he puts up with me reminding him about it all the time by saying, “Well, remember when I almost died?” 

He leans in when I push away and loves me when I’m hard to love.  

God knew what He was doing when He sent him to be my hero.  He knew what kind of man would need to be with me…one that would lean in.  

I’m so thankful for him – the gift.  Thankful for the “us.”  Thankful for our time together at the end of the day with our hot chocolate!  It’s the little things. 

Happy “First-Date” Anniversary!  I love you more.

It's not your love that sustains the marriage - but from now on, the marriage that sustains your love." ~Deitrich Bonhoeffer

Tuesday, October 28, 2014

Day 300

And then the one who was born first, who shares my love for photography, writing, reading, and being together, turned ELEVEN!  And I started thinking how fast time is going and got a huge lump in my throat. 
Happy Birthday shine as bright as the sun!  xoxo

Monday, October 27, 2014

Day 299

Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have called you by name, you are mine...
Because you are precious in my eyes, and honored,
and I love you, I give men in return for you,
peoples in exchange for your life.
Isaiah 43:1, 4 ESV

Friday, October 24, 2014

Day 296

"When you know who loves you, you know your safe places. You know where you can rest. You know where you can go when you fail. Knowing who loves you also lets you know who you can trust with your brave ideas and who will hold you accountable to being brave but not being foolish."
~Annie F. Downs, Lets all be Brave

Be somebody's safe place today.

Thursday, October 23, 2014

White Noise --- { Thursday's Blog Post }

“God’s first language is Silence.
Everything else is a translation.”
~Thomas Keating

White noise…I love it.  I have had some type of noise playing in the background for as long as I can remember.  I have to have it.  After having my children, I played white noise to try and keep the outside noise out while they were sleeping.  I still do it.  When there is no noise…it’s just too quiet for me.  

Noise – it can be good and not so good.

I’ve begun this new thing on the weekends.  I step away from the computer screen and the noise of the world to just really connect with my family.  The weekends are for connecting, for resting, for playing and for listening.  This refuels me for the next week. I do connect with my family during the week too---just to note.  


I am a team leader with Proverbs 31 Online Bible Studies and I’m online Monday – Friday…a lot.  So, my “free” time during the week is spent online.  While I love what I do…social media can suck the life right out of me.  My canary stops singing.  (If you read Glennon Doyle Melton’s blog, Momastery, you know what I mean. If not go here- or as Lysa TerKeurst states in her book, The Best Yes, “the elephant is sitting on my air hose.” I make my “Best Yes” decision by slowing down and seeing my reflection in the eyes of my family. I remove what I can of the *noise* of the world and listen to the voice of God. 

“Quietness is the classroom where you learn to hear (My) God’s voice.”
~Jesus Calling

I pay attention to what is around me – above me – beneath me.  I’m present in the moment.  This can be hard because I’m used to distractions.  I’m used to the busyness, the noise.  But does all of that really matter?  Does the noise of distractions really matter?  Or does this one life we are given matter.  I want my children to know that the noise of this world is fine but the noise coming from them is what I’m living for.  

I wrote last week about being a Hunter of Beauty - there is beauty everywhere.  There is beauty right in front of you.  In the mess of it all…there is beauty.  Today…is what we have.  Seek the light in the daily activities.  Everything comes alive when it’s bathed in light.  

When I look in the eyes of my children…I see my reflection.  I see the light in their eyes.  When our eyes connect…and they see that my focus is on them…that they are the most important thing ever…they come alive.  I fill them and He fills me.  

“An essential by-product of stopping to breathe and still our spirits and minds is that it gives God time to get a word in edgewise and speak to us. So much of our mental confusion, emotional upheaval and physical exhaustion would greatly dissipate if we would simply take the time to stop, breathe and lean into the presence of God.” ~Christine Caine

Day 142