Where did it go...that spark I used to have? That drive that used to get me up real early to meet with Him and write? What was once pure joy (and equally terrifying) has been lost to negative thinking and flat out laziness. What once so burned in me to be a leader in His kingdom has become so difficult to feel even the slightest bit of heat....until recently.
Recently I started paying attention again.
Oh, I believe that God creates sparks and I also believe He will change the course - change the spark.
I truly believe this was all on me though. I was the one that walked away. I was the one that ignored the signs. I stopped paying attention.
I believe this because a few months back...I ran into a friend. Someone I hadn't seen in a very long time. As we were leaving...she leaned in, hugged me and said, "Keep doing what you are doing. It is so needed. Don't stop." Just out of the blue. We hadn't talked about it at all but God and I had the day before.
Pay attention. Wake up and say yes.
“I know you well—you are neither hot nor cold; I wish you were one or the other!" ~Revelation 3:15